What am I going to do with you?

Please, please give me some insight. I'd really like to know what's on your mind. Thank God I have an insider or else I wouldn't know as much as I do. I just want to grab you and shout, "What the fuck are you thinking?" and only after then will I take the time to kiss you madly. And from there....well, I am sure that your imagination works as well as mine does...

There are so many other things I'd like to shout at you right now, but I think I just got stuck thinking about how long our first kiss would last and how I will try like hell to take your breath away....and succeed.

And, just like that, we've had our first fight; but more importantly, our first make-up session.

Hope you enjoyed that as much as I did ;)

28 Days of Celebrating 30

I am turning 30 on February 11. I am really excited.

Really?!
Yes, really!

I am not one of those people who dread turning older - Time and I are friends, and though at times he has a bit of a temper (and isn't afraid to show it), I welcome his engagement in my life. So, I shout delightedly, bring on the big 3 - 0! I am ready.

I am also a really big fan of birthday celebrations. My family was always really on top of birthday parties and cake while I was a kid growing up, so it is something that I've been nurtured to enjoy. Even now - I've have had no problem planning my own birthday parties - becoming an adult has given me the freedom (and budget) to allow the festivities to be even more fun (and sometimes, the kids are invited to play).

I had originally played around with the idea of visiting Mardi Gras for my 30th birthday party. What better way to celebrate a big year in your life than to go to one of the biggest parties ever?! Unfortunately, those plans didn't pan out - and thankfully, not. Because I've come up with something oh-so-much-cooler!

I have committed to treating myself to some sort of celebration each day through the month of February. Big or small, it doesn't matter. It has just got to be something out of the ordinary that I consider celebrate-worthy. A whole month of doing special things?! It's gonna be a great birthday!

I've got some things already planned on the calendar. Others, I will have to figure out as I go along...I will keep you posted.

Vow of Silence is Over

So, the vow of silence is over. I don't think that I consciously decided to stop writing - and I mean all writing, I haven't much journaled either - but somewhere along the way, that part of my personal life curled up for hibernation. The only areas of life that have gotten any sort of consistent content out of me is 1) Facebook (too easy to post thoughts as updates) and 2) WebSpark (but when it's your job and your paycheck depends on it, how can you say no?).

And hibernation is over. I can't tell you the exact moment I opened my eyes and decided to rub the sleep out of them, but it's happened. There have been several interesting developments in my life this month, and I don't think that this awakening can be attributed to just one of them...but maybe all of them combined? It is possible.

I've spent the last couple of days trying to get reacquainted with my plan and purpose, with the items that I had already lined up for covering and with the feelings and thoughts I had been intending to connect with -- it's been too long; and I feel like a stranger in my writer's skin.

And, let me say, now that the pressure has had a bit of release, I can feel the tumult of items to come...I wrote a couple of Love Letters last night, and I've been a little out of whack today. Thank goodness my co-workers and friends are used to me being a little different; and thank goodness they allow for a lot different from time to time.

I am not promising to write all the time now - we know where that leads, and I am not interested in setting myself up for failure and inevitable guilt. But, I am up and ready to stretch out the kinks from being snoozed-out for so long.

I am welcoming myself back to the platform....