Let me hear the instructions you know I should hear. Tell me what I must do to grow, and give me the acceptance to deal with those things I would rather avoid.*

LESSON. AFTER. LESSON. AFTER. LESSON.

You’d think I would have learned by now, right?

Or, that You would have given up on me.

But that’s not what I feel…

I feel such a yearning in my heart to grow, to be more, to offer light and love; and I feel like You’re after me to get my life straight, to level up my discipline, to be the woman You know I can be.

It’s exhausting.
I’m exhausted.

Can I please just hide in my hole?

But even as I ask that question, I know I would be unhappy. Living a half-life, not measuring up to what I am capable of – and I know, with faith, You will help me become more than what I am capable of –

That quote from Darren’s mum still sticks with me, even 3 months later:

“Your life will be better if you take action on the things you avoid.”

And I feel like I’ve been trying – it’s a slow process when I’ve let my life spiral out of control as I have. I haven’t been paying attention, and that – I feel – it my worst quality at the moment.

Letting so many things slide, and yet feeling your guidance, your correction through it all.

I would really prefer to get back on track. I’ve over the spin cycle…let’s get on with it.


*Quote: Wisdom from The Bible: Daily Thoughts from Proverbs
By: Dan and Nancy Dick
Edited by: Trudie Martineau